It has just dawned on me that I have been writing this blog for a while! My views versus the world views on Thais, Thailand and these magnitude of words have distorted my vision! As much as I love words , they now taunt me.
Of late the political stalemate and all the social economic welfare discussions have masked the love I feel for this country. I find the repetition of the same themes, constantly churn out for our consumptions by the media greying this mind. I’m beginning to lose faith.
The more I surf the web, the more I find endless blogs by westereners telling us what we should do, what will be good for us, how we should change. Most of the times, they a re spot on and that depress me even more!
Then if I swap to the Thai web forums and the chatters there are just as bad, opinionated, self righteous and very divisive!
My head hurts! I long for days when I can sit and chat openly in cafés, bars, restaurants, noodle stands, som-tam vans, about the future of this beloved country. But that is not going to be possible.
I feel very like the Chao Phrya river on the photo below. It looks so inviting!
This relationship I have with this dear country, is like a marriage, second quarter in. That middle part where the romance has died and day in day out you look at your partner and beginning to see the annoying habits and as days go by, the habits get exaggerated and ultimately get on your nerves! You begin to wonder why you stay in this relationship. All you see is the other possibilities beyond your reach!
Then quietly I stumbled on this site,www.monasie.com and suddenly I remembered why I love this country so much! PhillipeB has graciously allowed me to show you his work. This is how I have realigned my perspective back to the middle ground.
Thailand is not perceptual, post-modern thought embedded in my head! Being Thai is not about aligning myself with a philosophy or political party. Being Thai is just that! Its about being able to live with what is, in that moment and no more. The more we speculate to accumulate, the more remove we are from the essence of Thai-ness.
What do you think? These are so very Thailand for me. Thanks Phillipe for reminding me that Thailand isn’t about what’s going on but about what is!